first.
nobody was gonna know. it was a secret. for a year even you said. and it felt kinda cool. our own little secret.
then.
you told someone. and okay. she lives in vacouver.
and someone else found out. and she lives in vancouver too.
and then you told some friends.
and ironically i found out the morning after i struggled with a lie.
and then it was okay if your friends knew.
and i knew.
that it would change too.
and like. other people would find out and it would spread.
caz you gots alotta friends.
it did.
and. i knew.
you changed your mind again.
because you realized that people laughed. and said things. and wanted too much.
and it's okay if your friends know, but no one else? XP that doesn't work.
everyone.
or no one.
like i said.
i don't even know the rules anymore.
they keep changing.
it stresses me out.
i don't think i like that people found out in the first place.
and i hate.
how you said.
you wouldn't do what he did.
you wouldn't.
and that it'd be different. you didn't want it to be like that.
but it did happen.
i wish you'd tell me more sometimes.
i hate being the last to know things.
especially when you're my best friend.
and i know i'm second best.
i did not ask, who's been helping you fall asleep.
nobody was gonna know. it was a secret. for a year even you said. and it felt kinda cool. our own little secret.
then.
you told someone. and okay. she lives in vacouver.
and someone else found out. and she lives in vancouver too.
and then you told some friends.
and ironically i found out the morning after i struggled with a lie.
and then it was okay if your friends knew.
and i knew.
that it would change too.
and like. other people would find out and it would spread.
caz you gots alotta friends.
it did.
and. i knew.
you changed your mind again.
because you realized that people laughed. and said things. and wanted too much.
and it's okay if your friends know, but no one else? XP that doesn't work.
everyone.
or no one.
like i said.
i don't even know the rules anymore.
they keep changing.
it stresses me out.
i don't think i like that people found out in the first place.
and i hate.
how you said.
you wouldn't do what he did.
you wouldn't.
and that it'd be different. you didn't want it to be like that.
but it did happen.
i wish you'd tell me more sometimes.
i hate being the last to know things.
especially when you're my best friend.
and i know i'm second best.
i did not ask, who's been helping you fall asleep.
2 comments:
I didn't know the game we were playing
even had a set of rules
I like,
how even though you were clueless that he told people,
and me and you are good friends,
you were
loyal
to him.
you were completley and utterly loyal.
I'm really proud of you,
im impressed.
I dont know if I could do that.
Well, currently, I'm keeping this secret, because I promised, but
when things happen with W***, I always tell you.
I'm impressed :')
i hate being the last to know things.
especially when you're my best friend.
and i know i'm second best
I feel that way with my guy too ;)
and honestly,
I don't think it changes.
.. being placed in a higher spot, i mean.
and it kinda hurts.
i just. i couldn't say anything.
i made a promise.
i promised.
and when you love people
like you, an him.
it's really hard to break some promises.
it's so nice. that i can trust you so much. :P but i feel bad. XP because. secrets are hard sometimes. :S
i like that you share things with me. ;) keep me in the loop.
it was so hard not to tell you. especially when you asked. i just hoped that you wouldn't. :S
or that it'd be easier.
maybe it's a guy thing :P lol
:P girls are always in the girls category. which is placed a little lower than their guys.
it does kinda hurt. but i guess it's one of those things. where. it hurts. but it's still worth it. every bit.
thank you. :P for not leaving me alone.
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