that sense of home you lost when you left last year.

so i know i've basically fallen off the face of the interweb.
moving around alot
first stop. my dad's house.
things never change. him and my mom went into their same old patterns.
which was fine.
but i was there to visit him. him begging me.
and for the first two weeks he takes off fishing and we spend no time together.
then i go back to q-town, for the BBD.
which was full of twists and turns and inebreation.

fast rides are no longer my favorite >>

so when i get back to hometown. i finally get off my butt and arrange to spend time with human beings.
recconnecting with old friends :) it was swell.
pony, kat, greg.
my first rave ;)
no drugs etc. but it was awesome. marco is my favorite!
smeely was actually a decent rapper.
and walco was a crowd pleaser.
there were these few DBags. who thought they were hot shit.
but other than that it was good. met alot of people :)
merlin. called so because he's a wizard. i was getting everyone to dance and rock out
and this purpleshirtman.
he was aussie.
and while dancing with the merlin and purpleman.
just fun stuff. TWKYK style :p finger pointing, light bulb, lawn mower, sprinkler etc.
and apparently it took me FIFTEEN seconds to realize i was sneak-attack-grinded :P
goodness. so awkward. i tried to pretend it wasn't happening. and it just made things worse.

so after the night was over. aussie gave me a ride home :)
and we got to talking. and he gave me his number.
he works at great white. likes dungeons and dragons lol.
he's a swimmer. and just some random cool stuff.
and anyways. i end up at his house. and this flirting takes hours. before i leave i finally just kiss him.
gosh. indecisiveness :P
anyways.. that happened twice. i mean.... extensively.
;) i like aussie's.
yum. and was mentioning this to PONY. and probably the most innocent of all my friends. she says to me

"omg. you need to get laid."

this same day. while hanging out at great white with purpleman and his friend that worked in the mall as well.
i see from afar, an aquaintace from highschool walk in.
he's from q-town and i go to say hi.

"Leif Nellll"

usual smalltalk. hey how ya doin, parol officer eh? warhammer looks cool.
etc. :P

and he gives me his number so we can meet up and hang out the next day.
purpleman had stuff to do anyways.

that next morning is when pony's words came in.
not literally.


i never expected that things would change so much.
but i guess they already were. since the rave. since before then.
in good and bad ways. but mostly good :)