Derby. Daphne loves you.

this band. called the matinees. they came to our school (cool indie band.) and this slam poet. ( badler.ca) and they came with reach out or something. "psychosis sucks" :P they talked about it. it was cool.

this morning.
like every once in awhile.
things start to go really fast.
and get like. loud. ish.
but i know that everything is the same.
but it doesn't feel like it.
like everythings speeding up.
and i used to.
hear like.
this woman screaming.
and you know taz's voice/growl??
well. something like that too.
and it would grow louder as things went faster.
and i used to look for ways to make it stop.
and sometimes it worked.
sometimes it lasted awhile.
after it almost climaxed it would die down or something.
like. i'd forget about it all of a sudden.
i don't really hear the screams.
but it still happens sometimes.
and it bugs me.
even when listening to music. like.
the music wouldn't go faster.
but i it felt like it. and even listening to it.
the music felt faster too.
i always thought i might be bipolar.
with how i'm happy and sad in seconds.
and like. i unno.
:P
or like. maybe i have depression issues?

but.
i don't take it seriously.

i don't think i have psychosis.

but it's funny.

that it happened today.

i can't beleive that you would send your love to me now
even though i don't deserve it.