i think i might scrap the fairy tales for now.
he said "I've always been a dick! You never really cared till now" .
ouch. you're not just that. you are wonderful. you care. you have fascinating opinions. you're funny. you can be modest. and i love you. but it always hurt me when people said things. i just. want to be more honest. and open. and i don't even know if that's the problem.
i love him so much. but i'm scared my dramatics might push him away.
i'm scared my tendancy to want to know his every move, and every past movement might push him away. i mean. i tell him EVERYTHING. it's just kind of weird i don't get the same opportunity of knowledge. well. i think there's one secret left. but that's it. and :P it's just embarassing. and i didn't like the last reaction i got. because i take it seriously.
i take everything TOO seriously apparantly. that kind of hurts to hear sometimes. because, i'm. i dont know. it just does. and so does so much.
i feel like peach sometimes.
i bruise easy.
in more ways than one.
i was like, happier than ever two days ago. and now i feel like shit. i think i just have some issues. u kno.. up there.
i swing sometimes.
cept, the wonder of flying kind of, wore off after a bit.
and for some reason, i jump off at the peak. and i bruise my knees.
haven't done that in awhile though. so it seems to hurt more than i remember.
I wonder if it could be called an episode? yes??
using this blog. even if people don't read it. it really helps me just, talk to people. without having to talk to anyone. i'm still able to say anything. hopefully without too much consequence XP, then again...
he's going on vacation.
two weeks i believe.
if he reads this. even if he doesn't.
i'm really going to miss him.
... maybe that's all this really was .
cuz, ya i'm a "sensitive whoaaaMAN".
but. that might not have been it.
maybe i'm just sad he's leaving.
maybe i'm just going to miss him
rly. i think thats all it is.
.. mouse is a freak :S
:PP
(don't know why i'm publishing this. i changed my entire mood and mind like, half way through XPP)
he said "I've always been a dick! You never really cared till now" .
ouch. you're not just that. you are wonderful. you care. you have fascinating opinions. you're funny. you can be modest. and i love you. but it always hurt me when people said things. i just. want to be more honest. and open. and i don't even know if that's the problem.
i love him so much. but i'm scared my dramatics might push him away.
i'm scared my tendancy to want to know his every move, and every past movement might push him away. i mean. i tell him EVERYTHING. it's just kind of weird i don't get the same opportunity of knowledge. well. i think there's one secret left. but that's it. and :P it's just embarassing. and i didn't like the last reaction i got. because i take it seriously.
i take everything TOO seriously apparantly. that kind of hurts to hear sometimes. because, i'm. i dont know. it just does. and so does so much.
i feel like peach sometimes.
i bruise easy.
in more ways than one.
i was like, happier than ever two days ago. and now i feel like shit. i think i just have some issues. u kno.. up there.
i swing sometimes.
cept, the wonder of flying kind of, wore off after a bit.
and for some reason, i jump off at the peak. and i bruise my knees.
haven't done that in awhile though. so it seems to hurt more than i remember.
I wonder if it could be called an episode? yes??
using this blog. even if people don't read it. it really helps me just, talk to people. without having to talk to anyone. i'm still able to say anything. hopefully without too much consequence XP, then again...
he's going on vacation.
two weeks i believe.
if he reads this. even if he doesn't.
i'm really going to miss him.
... maybe that's all this really was .
cuz, ya i'm a "sensitive whoaaaMAN".
but. that might not have been it.
maybe i'm just sad he's leaving.
maybe i'm just going to miss him
rly. i think thats all it is.
.. mouse is a freak :S
:PP
(don't know why i'm publishing this. i changed my entire mood and mind like, half way through XPP)
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