wait to grow old, like we've been told, go bald go west and crazy

it gets better.
you know.
as time goes on.
she was right :P and i believed.
and i smiled. and i think it will
come true
you'll notice it.
if you look back.
usually
and you learn from your mistakes.
and i have no regrets.
none at all.
everything is worth it.

i thought for a bit. that life was at it's greatest.
in the sandbox.
with my two best friends in the world.
XPP basically my only ones.
but still.
and almost every day.
we'd hang. and play.

and i realized.
i wouldn't trade the heartache
for anything.
(:P the boys didn't really break my heart.
it was the girls.
the big people.
and the "lovely's".
ahem.. before i called them lovely's.
like i now do.)

and the older i got.
the more intelligent.
the more cultured.
and the more opinionated i got.
and the more knowledge i gained
the better i understood people.
and i'm still learning.

and i learned of love.
and i love, love.

i wonder sometimes.
when i'll learn to be the initiator
if i will.
if i really want to.




and he told me, "if you want to live.
you've got to start breathing."
and i did.
and i was human.
and we walked together until the sun came up.