Borne On The FM Waves Of My Heart

well i'm definitely not in control of the situation.

my relationship depends on me getting into, or not getting into BCIT..

my relationship is being ruined by my arthritis.
all of them are..

if i died two weeks ago like i said i should've.
i would've died happy.
and knowing i was loved.

i just hate not knowing.
and not feeling like anything i do is helping..
like it can't be helped..


too many angles. to many factors to cover.
waiting for a signal. searching for a network.

nothing is forever

i'm not quite sure what to say anymore.
i feel like everybody's hinting that It's better if i don't.
say anything that is.

does love last forever?
is forever really something anyone wants to think about?

i wonder if it really would fix things if i just sat back.
and relaxed..
ha.
relax.
you don't know me at all.


then what makes love so special